here we go again...

Last week Amy's Dr e-mailed me about what he'd like to do next...another spinal procedure. If she gets 4+ days of relief, he thinks we're on the right track and hopefully a series of these will finally bring relief. If she gets less than 4 days of relief, he wants to talk about implanting a neurotransmitter. We told him we're willing to try the injections again but are doubtful about putting her thru any more major procedures. I waited several days to hear from his office, but finally today I just called up there to see if they were ready to schedule anything. They said they'd check with him and get back to me by the end of the week. This afternoon we received a certified letter saying he was leaving the practice and we needed to find another pain management doctor. So I'm pretty sure the return phone call will be that he's not going to do any more procedures before he's no longer with that clinic. I'm so disappointed! This is the second pain mgmt Dr Amy's had who is leaving a practice. So now it looks like we have to start all over again with someone else. Amy's ready to just live with the pain and call it good. But we really do feel like we were getting somewhere finally, and we kind of hate to give up now. Agh! Sometimes trusting in God's perfect plan is so hard. I know He has things under control and that there's a reason for these trials. So even though I'm not too thrilled about this turn of events, I'm going to trust that things will work out as they should. Tonight I'll pray for patience and strength to face the unknowns ahead. For Amy's sake I hope we figure things out soon. Our timetable says we need to get her pain under control before she heads off to school in the fall. But even if it takes awhile, I know things are unfolding as they should. I choose to trust God to do what's best for our girl. I'm so glad to know He loves her and knows what's best even when I'm clueless!